Lordy Lordy...

Today I am 40 years old.


I am being that stereotypical person and having a really tough time accepting this birthday.

I swear the first time I heard this song the face of every person who has ever been a part of my life flashed before my eyes. The thing is, I am pretty damn lucky. I was born into a fantastic family, and being surrounded with that much love leads to a pretty damn good life. And as if my loving and supportive family that I got to grow up with wasn't enough, I have friends that have been with me for almost all my life. They are fiercely loyal people who I know have my back and who I love with all my heart.

It hasn't been perfect. Oh... far from it. I have had my share of heartbreak, and of making mistakes. I have been through loss and questioned lots of my decisions. There have been some really dark days. I may not be where I thought I would be at this age, but the love and the really good times far outnumber everything bad and the what if's. 

As I look back on the past 40 years it was almost all "good ol'days". As I step into this next decade of life I need to keep reminding myself that this part, today, will be the "good ol' days". And so much sooner than I think. I need to remember to stop and enjoy it. If I keep remembering this I can let go some of the daily frustrations that comes with life. To remember that I get to be in this lifetime with some truly incredible people. Some who were part of my past, and so many that are here today and will be with me for the rest of my days. 

Getting old sucks. No doubt. My hair is getting grey and my back hurts after a long day. But I get to grow old with my soul mate by my side. I get to go through these milestone with my Tampon Posse Crew no matter how far away. I get to share though modern technology the little things in our days, everyday, with my parents and siblings. I get to celebrate birthdays, weddings, babies and everything else with my beautiful giant familia. I get to watch my two remarkable kids grow into remarkable people. 

The best part of my 40 years has been the people I have been blessed to share them with. 100%

Never thought we'd get old, maybe we're still young

May we always look back and think it was better than it was

Maybe these are the moments

Maybe I've been missing what it's about

Been scared of the future, thinking about the past

While missing out on now

We've come so far, I guess I'm proud

And I ain't worried about the wrinkles around my smile

I've got some scars, I've been around

I've thrown some pain, I've seen some things, but I'm here now

Those good old days